Must Tenuki For a While

As some of you might have noticed, I’ve been pretty MIA for a while. One of the major events that happened last week was I moved out to a new apartment. And for those who know what it’s like to move, you know how much of a monstrosity that can be when it comes to sorting, packing, and cleaning.

The move came at a rather funny time in my life as it happened to be a perfect representation of how I’ve been deconstructing my own life lately as well. Reassessing what I’m trying to do and where all my time and energy is being placed. On one hand, everything is a gigantic mess and it’s difficult at times to figure out what I’m trying to do in all this chaos. However, I have confidence that it will work out for the best.

As I’m reassessing my strategy for my life, it should come as no surprise that I’ve had to reassess how I’ve been approaching my study of go as well. I’ll be honest in that I have not been happy at all with my numerous training regimens and have felt like I’ve lost focus. In fact, my Yunguseng match which was rescheduled for today was the first time I even looked at anything go related at all in the past few days. It was quite a weird feeling.

So while I would love to continue the momentum I had going with the blog, I’m putting a hold on all the weekly articles and game commentary in order to give myself time to really sort through things. So I hope you’ll forgive me as I must tenuki for a while as I try and figure out what my whole board strategy for my life is.

I’ll be sure to drop in and update you on my thoughts and progress, so no need to worry that I’m simply dropping off the face of the planet. I’ll still be around.

Hope that all is well with everyone.

  • Todd Bowlby

    Thanks for letting everyone know you’re okay.

    Regular blogging isn’t as important as heartfelt blogging. At least I hope so, because I’m not very good at being a regular blogger! For a long time, however, you have managed to make your posts both heartfelt and on a regular basis at the same time. Write again when you feel it in your heart; until then, I’ll miss your posts, and I’ll see you sometime on a server when we’re both having fun with Go.

    • Moboy78

      What this guy said =)

      • Ben

        Thanks man! I don’t plan on being gone for long, but glad to hear the support!

    • Ben

      Thanks for your words of support Todd. It means a lot to know that my time up to this point has been spent well and appreciated by people like you.

      I absolutely agree with you when it comes to heartfelt blogging vs regular blogging. After all, stilted writing is no fun for the writer or the reader!

      I certainly hope that we can see each other online in the near future. Until then, best of luck with your games and still free to reach out to me if you need anything!

  • Jeromie Rand

    Thank you for all that you’ve already given the go community through your blogging. I’ve learned a lot through your insightful analysis, and I’ve really enjoyed being invited into your journey to get stronger at go. I hope you’re able to return to regularly blogging about go soon, but even if that particular adventure does not lie along your path know that I (and many) are thankful for what you’ve already given us. In the meantime, I hope you find peace on the board and in your life.

    • Ben

      Thank you Jeromie! It means a lot to see such support as I take this time to really inspect what I’ve been doing in my life. It certainly is no reflection on go, but in fact even inspired from all that I’ve learned from go in the need to maintain balance and keep watch of the whole board at all times.

      I hope that you find peace on the board and on life as well. And since this isn’t a break caused by burnout, I certainly hope to be back sooner rather than later! Till then!

  • MolokaiCowboy

    I came late to the game here, but have derived much learning from BenGoZen, especially the Monday Meditation. I’ll miss all of that but think you are making a sound decision, Ben. Best to you and thanks much!

    • Ben

      Thanks Molokai! When I make my debut back onto the blogging scene, I certainly hope to have a more efficient system in place that will allow for consistent blogging at a lower energy and time cost. After all, it’s clear that there is value in what I do here; so I’ll be back before you know it!

      • MolokaiCowboy

        There is a chess story about a famous grandmaster, Akiba Rubinstein. It is said as a teen he was a decent amateur but no more. He disappeared from the chess scene for a few months – and came back a grandmaster!

        So, Ben. I expect you to come back to BenGoZen at least 3d. :)

        Seriously for whatever reasons I do think giving your subconscious mind time to digest what you’ve learned is the best thing possible at this time.

        • Ben

          Hahaha. If I’m even playing consistently at a high SDK level, I think I’ll be happy. But no matter, I think you are right that this will give me much needed time to let my subconscious mind recover and digest what I’ve been learning since my last break. Though if you ever need anything, still feel free to reach out!