(;GM[1]FF[4]CA[UTF-8]AP[CGoban:3]ST[2]
RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[6.50]TM[1200]OT[5x30 byo-yomi]
GN[Monday Go Meditation: Game 17]PW[BenGoZen]PB[Black]WR[5k]BR[5k]DT[2013-06-05]PC[The KGS Go Server at http://www.gokgs.com/]RE[B+2.50]
;B[pd]BL[1191.788]
;W[dp]WL[1187.47]C[For now, as White, I am avoiding giving Black the opportunity to start a cross-fuseki since I'm trying to get a better grasp of fuseki as a whole.]
;B[pq]BL[1188.144]C[Possible Chinese Opening...]
;W[dd]WL[1185.433]C[Ninrensei it is!]
;B[cn]BL[1184.328]LB[fq:A][pq:B]C[Really weird direction... and by weird I mean totally wrong. Approach at A works properly with the B stone.]
;W[fq]WL[1170.593]
;B[bp]BL[1180.379]
;W[cq]WL[1167.87]
;B[ck]BL[1176.521]
;W[nc]WL[1159.033]
;B[ld]BL[1170.653]C[Since he chose the one space high pincer....]
;W[ne]WL[1050.575]C[I figure might as well split and keep the game complicated.]
;B[pf]BL[1164.689]
;W[pb]WL[1042.601]
;B[fd]BL[1160.6]
;W[cf]WL[966.162]LB[df:A][ch:B]TR[ck][cn][bp]C[I decide to respond low here due to Black's group on the left side. Responding high at A would've given Black an easy approach move at B.]
;B[ch]BL[1153.376]C[Black plays at B anyways, but it's no longer as sente as it would've been had my stone been on the fourth line instead.]
;W[hd]WL[956.003]
;B[ff]BL[1148.247]
;W[hf]WL[949.833]
;B[lf]BL[1140.843]
;W[ng]WL[914.518]
;B[oh]BL[1117.937]C[When Black plays here, I get a bit irritated at his odd play style and choose to start a fight.]
;W[og]WL[906.081]
;B[pg]BL[1115.479]
;W[ph]WL[904.675]
;B[pi]BL[1084.727]
;W[qh]WL[869.18]
;B[qi]BL[1082.9]
;W[oi]WL[852.191]
;B[nh]BL[1079.762]C[Except I am not careful enough to realize this is actually putting me in a bad position.]
;W[rh]WL[849.528]C[I try to flail around a bit...]
;B[ri]BL[1071.099]
;W[oj]WL[815.712]
;B[mh]BL[1053.967]
;W[rf]WL[807.955]
;B[re]BL[1043.393]
;W[mg]WL[749.788]
;B[lg]BL[1033.011]
;W[lh]WL[748.186]
;B[li]BL[1029.804]
;W[kh]WL[746.83]
;B[mi]BL[1027.534]
;W[oe]WL[734.868]TR[mg][ng][og]SQ[ph][qh][rh]C[This move is ajikeshi. It might save the marked stones, but White's other stones are nearly captured... Poor overall play by White.]
;B[pe]BL[1022.839]
;W[ki]WL[697.524]
;B[kj]BL[1011.361]
;W[po]WL[670.857]C[I decide to approach here since I don't want Black to enclose a clorner and possible make a framework out of the lower right.]
;B[pl]BL[1000.575]
;W[no]WL[623.677]
;B[op]BL[983.633]
;W[nm]WL[589.821]C[I refuse to play the solid connection at A since it would make my group heavy. This move is a little more loose but has more influence on the rest of the board.]
;B[nl]BL[977.358]
;W[ml]WL[575.718]
;B[nk]BL[973.797]
;W[lj]WL[528.376]C[I cut here to create more aji.]
;B[mj]BL[961.296]
;W[lk]WL[526.701]
;B[jj]BL[941.832]
;W[hj]WL[510.404]TR[jj][kj]SQ[ld][lf][lg]C[And I'm feeling pretty good since I'm planning on capturing the marked stones while I having my eyes on the stones on the top (which would lead to a pretty nice top area).]
;B[jg]BL[929.488]LB[hd:1][ne:2][hj:4][ml:3]TR[kh][lh][ki]C[My greediness failed to account for this net that I consider to be the winning move for Black. The key cutting stones are now captured and White is now fragmented all around the board. Bad news...]
;W[qq]WL[386.68]C[Here I try to create some aji and maybe steal the corner from Black. ]
;B[oo]BL[919.466]
;W[on]WL[377.956]
;B[pn]BL[917.525]
;W[qo]WL[358.066]
;B[qn]BL[908.879]
;W[np]WL[300.202]
;B[nq]BL[896.073]
;W[ol]WL[297.576]C[Trying to create holes while reducing in sente.]
;B[ok]BL[892.361]
;W[pm]WL[294.67]
;B[qm]BL[879.807]
;W[om]WL[288.866]
;B[mm]BL[875.1]
;W[nn]WL[287.275]
;B[ql]BL[835.609]
;W[lm]WL[281.846]
;B[mq]BL[822.153]
;W[lo]WL[265.592]C[I end up in gote here...]
;B[qr]BL[817.85]C[Black decides to firmly capture the corner, so I get sente back.]
;W[dl]WL[234.391]
;B[cl]BL[810.319]
;W[dn]WL[232.691]
;B[kp]BL[794.019]C[Black's direction of play is pretty good becuase it's clear I'm trying to make a large lower left piece of territory.]
;W[cm]WL[222.133]C[Nonetheless, this is sente.]
;B[bm]BL[788.696]
;W[dm]WL[220.887]
;B[bn]BL[784.026]
;W[iq]WL[201.196]
;B[hh]BL[776.855]C[Black is now aiming to capture my group on top.]
;W[hc]WL[189.167]LB[fc:A]C[For some reason, I hesitated on trying to connect at A. Most likely due to laziness of trying to read it out and fear that it wouldn't work out.]
;B[fc]BL[770.469]
;W[ke]WL[185.673]
;B[le]BL[760.365]
;W[kc]WL[171.856]
;B[lc]BL[754.852]
;W[jf]WL[165.577]
;B[ig]BL[746.655]
;W[lb]WL[145.674]
;B[mb]BL[741.447]
;W[kb]WL[144.366]
;B[mc]BL[739.556]
;W[qc]WL[141.929]
;B[oc]BL[723.302]
;W[nb]WL[140.606]
;B[ob]BL[710.991]
;W[na]WL[134.669]
;B[ma]BL[693.111]
;W[oa]WL[129.902]
;B[od]BL[660.372]C[At this point, I realize that if I try to save everything, everything is probably going to die.]
;W[rd]WL[126.755]
;B[nd]BL[650.66]
;W[qe]WL[123.21]
;B[qd]BL[641.68]
;W[se]WL[120.116]
;B[qf]BL[629.575]
;W[rb]WL[108.084]
;B[pa]BL[611.112]
;W[qa]WL[101.291]C[Life!]
;B[rg]BL[604.529]
;W[gb]WL[61.915]
;B[fb]BL[600.11]
;W[ib]WL[58.925]
;B[cc]BL[596.367]C[This puts me in a precarious situation since I definitely have to run.]
;W[bh]WL[29.316]C[When in doubt, attach to try and make sabaki!]
;B[bi]BL[592.279]
;W[bg]WL[27.499]
;B[be]BL[565.71]
;W[dh]WL[22.74]
;B[di]BL[556.584]
;W[ce]WL[4.97]
;B[bd]BL[551.48]
;W[eg]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[fg]BL[541.954]
;W[fh]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[dg]BL[518.199]
;W[eh]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gi]BL[505.741]
;W[fj]WL[30]OW[5]C[I jump here knowing that I'm about to bet it all on being able to connect back in the center.]
;B[fi]BL[500.322]
;W[ei]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ci]BL[481.488]
;W[cg]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ej]BL[471.576]
;W[dj]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ek]BL[462.847]
;W[dk]WL[30]OW[5]C[Let the games begin!]
;B[fl]BL[445.62]
;W[gj]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[hl]BL[404.228]
;W[ik]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[kl]BL[388.785]
;W[il]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[hn]BL[364.159]
;W[im]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[go]BL[354.329]
;W[kk]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[jk]BL[343.055]
;W[jl]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ii]BL[310.109]
;W[hi]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gh]BL[305.342]
;W[ef]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ee]BL[299.436]
;W[df]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[kn]BL[273.043]C[This tenuki gives White a chance to reverse the game back in his favor. Can you see why?]
;W[ji]WL[30]OW[5]C[Shortage of liberties!]
;B[km]BL[245.023]
;W[ll]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ln]BL[235.323]
;W[mn]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[kg]BL[221.213]
;W[ij]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gq]BL[191.407]C[Black now struggles to live.]
;W[gm]WL[30]OW[5]C[Steal eye shape!]
;B[fp]BL[174.793]
;W[eq]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[eo]BL[169.464]
;W[do]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[br]BL[162.829]
;W[cr]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[bq]BL[156.084]
;W[ko]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[jp]BL[147.619]
;W[ip]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[io]BL[138.057]
;W[jo]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[lp]BL[85.157]
;W[gr]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[hq]BL[77.053]
;W[hp]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[hr]BL[53.346]
;W[ir]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[fr]BL[44.733]
;W[gs]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gp]BL[24.084]
;W[hs]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[jn]BL[0.136]
;W[mo]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[in]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[fm]WL[30]OW[5]C[But it's futile!! Black dies!]
;B[sc]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[sb]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[re]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[sd]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[sf]BL[30]OB[5]C[Believe it or not... I didn't even realize this put my group in atari....]
;W[dc]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[db]BL[30]OB[5]C[Apparently he didn't realize either....]
;W[cb]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[bb]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[eb]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ca]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ea]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ec]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[fa]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gf]BL[30]OB[5]LB[ge:A]C[Although it seems like he's protecting his connections.]
;W[ge]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[fe]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[hg]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[gg]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ih]WL[30]OW[5]C[You're dead!]
;B[if]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[he]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[jd]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[kd]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ga]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ha]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[da]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ga]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ie]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[jc]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[ja]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[la]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[id]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[gc]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[kr]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[bj]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[cj]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ai]WL[30]OW[2]
;B[bk]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[aj]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[rc]BL[30]OB[5]C[This was the biggest shock of the entire game. I was crushed by the fact that I had just let the entire corner die and that I didn't even realize my group was in atari... the woes of being distracted when playing....]
;W[al]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[bl]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ak]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[ah]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ag]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[am]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ah]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[cs]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ds]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[bs]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[er]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[bf]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[mk]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[pj]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[jr]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[kq]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[ks]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[ls]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[js]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[lr]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[af]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[ae]BL[30]OB[5]
;W[cd]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[cp]BL[30]OB[4]
;W[co]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[bo]BL[30]OB[4]
;W[jh]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[em]BL[30]OB[4]
;W[el]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[kf]BL[30]OB[3]
;W[je]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[ic]BL[30]OB[3]
;W[jb]WL[30]OW[1]
;B[]BL[30]OB[3]
;W[]WL[30]OW[1]TW[ia][ja][ka][fb][hb][ec][fc][ed][fd][gd][de][ee][fe][ff][gf][dg][fg][gg][gh][hh][fi][gi][ii][ej][jj][kj][ek][fk][gk][hk][jk][fl][gl][hl][kl][em][hm][jm][km][mm][en][fn][gn][hn][in][jn][kn][ln][eo][fo][go][ho][io][ep][fp][gp][dq][gq][hq][dr][fr][hr][es][fs][is]TB[aa][ba][na][oa][qa][ra][sa][ab][cb][nb][pb][qb][rb][sb][ac][bc][nc][pc][qc][ad][md][rd][sd][me][ne][oe][qe][se][mf][nf][of][rf][mg][ng][og][qg][sg][ph][qh][rh][sh][ni][oi][si][nj][oj][qj][rj][sj][pk][qk][rk][sk][rl][sl][rm][sm][an][rn][sn][ao][po][qo][ro][so][ap][pp][qp][rp][sp][aq][lq][oq][qq][rq][sq][ar][mr][nr][or][pr][rr][sr][as][ms][ns][os][ps][qs][rs][ss]C[Unfortunately, due to my immense stupidity, I would lose the game by 2.5 points. So close... yet so far!])
