Must Tenuki For a While

As some of you might have noticed, I’ve been pretty MIA for a while. One of the major events that hap­pened last week was I moved out to a new apart­ment. And for those who know what it’s like to move, you know how much of a mon­stros­ity that can be when it comes to sort­ing, pack­ing, and cleaning.

The move came at a rather funny time in my life as it hap­pened to be a per­fect rep­re­sen­ta­tion of how I’ve been decon­struct­ing my own life lately as well. Reassess­ing what I’m try­ing to do and where all my time and energy is being placed. On one hand, every­thing is a gigan­tic mess and it’s dif­fi­cult at times to fig­ure out what I’m try­ing to do in all this chaos. How­ever, I have con­fi­dence that it will work out for the best.

As I’m reassess­ing my strat­egy for my life, it should come as no sur­prise that I’ve had to reassess how I’ve been approach­ing my study of go as well. I’ll be hon­est in that I have not been happy at all with my numer­ous train­ing reg­i­mens and have felt like I’ve lost focus. In fact, my Yun­guseng match which was resched­uled for today was the first time I even looked at any­thing go related at all in the past few days. It was quite a weird feeling.

So while I would love to con­tinue the momen­tum I had going with the blog, I’m putting a hold on all the weekly arti­cles and game com­men­tary in order to give myself time to really sort through things. So I hope you’ll for­give me as I must tenuki for a while as I try and fig­ure out what my whole board strat­egy for my life is.

I’ll be sure to drop in and update you on my thoughts and progress, so no need to worry that I’m sim­ply drop­ping off the face of the planet. I’ll still be around.

Hope that all is well with everyone.

Monday Go Meditation: Game 64

Intro­duc­tion

Con­trary to what I said last week, this week’s Mon­day Go Med­i­ta­tion fea­tures my Yun­guseng Dojang game from last week. The rea­son for this is two-fold: (1) I didn’t play any other games over the past two weeks and (2) I’m still try­ing to keep MGM as cur­rent as possible.

As I men­tioned before, I was feel­ing rather iffy before this game. My oppo­nent was around 4–5k in strenghth, and with my ups and downs lately, I wasn’t so sure that I could even beat him. But before I could wal­low too much in my own inse­cu­ri­ties, the game started.

Note: Sim­i­lar to the other YSD match I posted last week, any spe­cific things I learned from the review will be omit­ted in this game to respect other mem­bers’ paid membership.

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One Point Lesson

When play­ing a moyo vs moyo game, don’t get caught up in small gains (like tak­ing a cor­ner) when big points like an opponent’s cor­ner enclo­sure on a dou­ble winged for­ma­tion are avail­able on the board.

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Friday Go Forward: Week 70

Overview

This week has been very sparse in terms of study and play­ing, but extremely heavy in regards to writ­ing (if you didn’t notice with the Weekly Go Wednes­day arti­cle). And though my time has been a bit more biased towards writ­ing, I don’t think any of you are com­plain­ing. Haha.

It’s taken some time to break into my pro­duc­tiv­ity sys­tem, but the cogs and wheels are start­ing to mesh together bet­ter now. I’m much more aware of where my time is going along with how I’m pro­gress­ing as a whole in life now. Whole board think­ing. See that?

I’m look­ing for­ward to when my entire sys­tem works effort­lessly and I can really amp up my go train­ing. No mat­ter though. Slow and steady wins the race.

Train­ing Regimen

  • Work on go for at least 10–15 min­utes a day.

Games

  • KGS —  1 game
  • DGS — 6 ongo­ing games
  • OGS —  7 ongo­ing games

Books

Lessons Learned

  • It doesn’t mat­ter if you make mis­takes dur­ing your game because your oppo­nent is just as likely to make mis­takes if not big­ger ones. So don’t be too hard on your­self dur­ing a game because you’ll only be mak­ing your­self more vul­ner­a­ble than necessary.

Trying to Put the Pieces Back Together

I played the sec­ond round of my Yun­guseng match tonight. To be hon­est, it was a game of mixed feel­ings. Though I hate to admit it, I’m not quite out of my slump yet. I could def­i­nitely feel it as I started get­ting antsy when the game began. I started being neg­a­tive and wor­ried that I would lose again. Yet on the other hand, there were moments where I man­aged to give my game some life as I surged forth with a desire to attack and try to harass my opponent’s group with as much vigor as I could muster up.

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It was a bit weird being in this bi-polar/gray area of feel­ing like my go was rather aim­less, hav­ing it spring back to life, mak­ing bad moves where I was com­pletely off with my read­ing, and then hav­ing lively energy again. Then again I guess this is all part of try­ing to put the pieces together again. They don’t quite fit together at the moment, but I’m opti­mistic that they will become whole once again.

And though I would nor­mally be con­cerned with how fast it would take or when it would hap­pen, I’ve real­ized that doing so will not do me any good. I’ll just keep work­ing on my weak­nesses and play to the best of my abil­ity. Every­thing will fall into place in due time.

PS. There won’t be any detailed com­men­tary for this game, but I just wanted to men­tion that there are quite a num­ber of mis­takes and over­plays in this game. So in case any­one wants to point out things like my lower left cor­ner was sup­posed to die and so forth, no wor­ries, got it all in the review.

How to “Teach” Go

Weekly Go Wednes­day, Issue #45

Intro­duc­tion

Intro­duc­ing go to new peo­ple is a topic that I’m very pas­sion­ate about and it’s some­thing that I think a lot of peo­ple mess up. To be fair, it’s not their fault and they are not inten­tion­ally doing so. It’s just that peo­ple don’t real­ize how the lack or pres­ence of cer­tain teach­ing prin­ci­ples can have pro­foundly dif­fer­ent results.

I come from the belief that one day go will be known by the masses and played by all kinds of peo­ple. I don’t believe that it is a game for “smart” peo­ple and have no inten­tion of see­ing it get shelved as a niche of a game that only “intel­lec­tu­als” play. Every­thing you’re about to read comes from per­sonal expe­ri­ence and/or things that I have actu­ally wit­nessed in real life, so there’s noth­ing the­o­ret­i­cal about it. In addi­tion, I have to empha­size that this “man­i­festo” focuses on peo­ple brand new to go. More estab­lished play­ers are not con­sid­ered below.

With that said, let’s dive right into it shall we?

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Finding Happiness and Fun in Go Again

Dur­ing my game review for the first match of the month, I had a dis­turb­ing rev­e­la­tion. As Inseong was talk­ing about my mis­takes, he then com­mented on how attack­ing was one of the most plea­sur­able aspects of go. Sud­denly, a light­bulb went off in my head as I real­ized what had been miss­ing from my games all this time: I had for­got­ten how to attack.

As I sat there, I thought, “Me? Not attack­ing prop­erly? Not enjoy­ing the attack? How far have I fallen?”

Need­less to say, it got me won­der­ing if this was what was wrong with me over these past cou­ple of weeks; but what’s funny is that life had some­thing else in store for me as well. Though I didn’t know it at the time, some­thing that I had vol­un­teered to help out at was hap­pen­ing the same week­end: the Smith­son­ian Folk­life Fes­ti­val was about to give me the wake-up call that I needed.

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At first, with me being down lately, I have to admit that I was a bit reluc­tant to go as the day crept up. Before I knew it though, Sat­ur­day was upon me and I was sit­ting down and teach­ing per­son after per­son. And with each per­son that sat down, see­ing their eyes light up as they learned the rules and enjoyed their time was really heart-warming for me. Out of all the ones I taught though, there was one in par­tic­u­lar that I want to men­tion here.

A young girl (prob­a­bly around 6–8 years old) and her mother decided to stop by to learn the game. As I taught the rules to the girl and pro­ceeded through my own cur­ricu­lum of how I believe go should be taught, she picked it up with rel­a­tive ease. And with each new mile­stone in learn­ing the game, her eyes lit up and a smile spread across her face that I can only describe as absolutely adorable.

Fast for­ward a bit, and I decide that she’s ready to try an actual game of go. I had com­man­deered the big 9x9 mag­netic board (with huge pieces) that is used for demon­stra­tion at the time. So as one can expect, there was a bit of a crowd around us by the time our game started. I gave her 7 stones as a hand­i­cap and we started playing.

To my utter sur­prise, she ignored most of my over­plays and played such calm and beau­ti­ful moves! If I tried to hane on one stone, she would ignore me and just con­nect her stones together only to leave me in dis­may. And before I knew it, she killed my entire group and owned the entire board.

Now, while another per­son might have found it to be embar­rass­ing, I thought it was the per­fect oppor­tu­nity to demon­strate to the crowd what it looked like to get demol­ished and to explain that resign­ing was an hon­or­able thing to do in this game. This got quite a big laugh of course. And as I turned to the girl and her mom to tell her how she did an incred­i­ble job crush­ing me, she beamed with hap­pi­ness and pride that made the entire spec­ta­cle entirely worth it.

The rea­son I’m writ­ing this is because it’s really easy to get caught up in the com­pet­i­tive aspects of go. After all, most play­ers who end up play­ing this game long term are usu­ally play­ing to become the strongest player they can pos­si­bly be. But after my expe­ri­ences these last few days, I’m reminded of the fact that there is far more to go than sim­ply gain­ing that next stone.

Though it’s easy to for­get, find­ing hap­pi­ness and fun in go is just as impor­tant (if not the most) when tak­ing that next step in your jour­ney as a go player. I’m not quite out of the woods yet in regards to my own slump, but I can tell you that this week­end was the ray of light that I needed as I start to make my way toward the end of the tunnel.

Monday Go Meditation: Game 63

Intro­duc­tion

For this week, I’ve decided to honor a request made by my friend Rob who asked that I review the game that was the cause for my post on being con­fused. Though I haven’t been com­ment­ing on games from YSD, I’ve decided to make an excep­tion for this one.

Just to note though, any spe­cific insight that was taught by Inseong is with­held from the com­men­tary in order to respect other member’s paid mem­ber­ships. So while I will com­ment on what I under­stood on my own, any spe­cific details will be omit­ted in this review.

Hope you enjoy this review!

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One Point Lesson

Even when you are just about to win the game, the slight­est mis­step could mean utter defeat if you are not careful.

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Friday Go Forward: Week 69

Overview

I swear my train­ing reg­i­men is get­ting shorter with each week that goes on by, but in all fair­ness, I am work­ing on devel­op­ing a sys­tem that focuses on con­sis­tency over a long period of time as opposed to hav­ing my life be extremely skewed towards one direc­tion or another based on how I feel. Of course, this doesn’t mean that I’m only doing that much every day, but it’s my bare min­i­mum require­ment per day.

One of the things I’ve been work­ing on through­out the week is design­ing a bet­ter blog­ging sys­tem. I was cur­rently work­ing directly out of Word­Press and col­lect­ing notes where I could here and there, but it wasn’t a very effi­cient sys­tem and took up quite a bit of time. To my luck, in the process of me restruc­tur­ing other aspects of my life (i.e., time man­age­ment, project man­age­ment, finances, etc.), I actu­ally stum­bled across Scrivener and have been test­ing out recently. I’m still in the trial period, but I have to say that this tool is really quite impres­sive for seri­ous writ­ers out there. It’s start­ing to really help me get my thoughts together and allow me to blog more effectively.

Another thing that I want to men­tion is that after next week’s Fri­day Go For­ward, I will most likely be push­ing out these progress reports to Sat­ur­day since they are more sta­tus updates than any­thing else and can be sched­uled ahead of time. I’ve found it to be near impos­si­ble to blog on Sat­ur­day, so this will add a con­sis­tent con­tent item to Sat­ur­day while allow­ing me to blog about more per­sonal things on Fri­day if I want to.

Finally, I plan on releas­ing an online doc­u­ment that will allow you to check my train­ing and efforts in go in real time! By doing so, you can get a real detailed look at what I’m doing since sta­tus reports are gen­er­ally more an overview than any­thing else. Hope­fully this will be of inter­est to some of you, but if not, at least it will be another arti­fact to track my progress and pos­si­ble analy­sis in the future.

With all that said, hope all those liv­ing in the US have a great 4th of July week­end! See you all next week.

Train­ing Regimen

  • Work on go for at least 10–15 min­utes a day.

Games

  • KGS —  3 games
  • DGS — 6 ongo­ing games
  • OGS —  5 ongo­ing games

Books

Videos

Lessons Learned

  • I’m still bad at fram­ing moves in terms of how many points / poten­tial it can pro­vide when play­ing games.
  • I need to start trust­ing my instinct more. Appar­ently it is cor­rect more often than I give it credit for.

Feeling Full of Contradictions

Man­aged to win the first round of Yun­guseng Dojang tonight. Con­trary to most people’s expec­ta­tion how­ever, I’m not feel­ing par­tic­u­larly good about it. I don’t know. Hard to say. Because it feels like to some extend, the games I win I don’t like, but then the games I felt good about are the ones I ended up los­ing. But my head has been in a bit of a haze lately, so it’s hard to say if what I’m feel­ing makes any sense at the moment.

What I will say at the moment how­ever, is that I def­i­nitely feel like my jour­ney has come to a cul­mi­na­tion point where every­thing seems to be con­tra­dict­ing. In an effort to not play auto­matic moves and think on a whole board scale, I end up ignor­ing my instinct to play a move which is actu­ally the proper move that I end up talk­ing myself out of for X rea­son. Games I win are games I dis­like while games I lose are ones that I feel are bet­ter. North is south and east is west. Oy vey…

I imag­ine that oth­ers who have gone through this must find it quite dif­fi­cult. It def­i­nitely seems eas­ier to just throw in the towel instead of sub­ject­ing myself to being neck deep in this con­fu­sion; but this is the time when I’m reminded of the quote:

Many of life’s fail­ures are peo­ple who did not real­ize how close they were to suc­cess when they gave up.”

- Thomas A. Edison

Going to keep calm and main­tain my bear­ings… Onwards… Always mov­ing forward.…